The words of an artist waiting for the right love

NS has kept me busy

2006-05-06T15:21:00.000+08:00

Ok i know long time but National Service has kept me away from the PC n also when im back home im spending all my time with my baby boo girlfriend who has been my pillar of strength. Her voice n happiness has kept me going all this while so my motivation to go on is to make her happy n be proud of me but basically lots of training, training n alot more training but wat to do. Ok time for me to go n update my other blog see ya

Endless Nites of Tears

2006-03-09T01:03:00.000+08:00

NS is calling me up in 6 hours time it feels sad that I haf to go into army.

Baby, read my MSN nick and understand that phrase I'll be here always no matter what happens! You haf been my pillar of strength for all these years if it weren't for u I would had gone insane and I wouldn't be the person i am today you'r the one person outside my family who has made the most impact in my life and Im thankful to God for the most wonderful gift/friend a person could ever ask for.

Also if u ever get into accident and the iPod would be gone if u dun do any actions jus leave it your safety is more important to me than any device/toy/gift/etc. dat a guy could get. Be strong i'll try my best in NS and you do ur best in school. Not a case of If but "When" I book out of camp we can spend time together even tho my face may explode with alot of pimples and my skin gets darker n i look a lil different jus know im the same person dat u love and care for.

I love you baby miss you lots *Muackz*

Countdown to Army has began

2006-03-04T01:38:00.000+08:00

The week leading up to my National Service is definitely not gonna be easy for me as this coming Thursday will be the day that the government will be calling up my butt for National Service. Alot of things are going through my mind.

For one thing the one person outside I care the most outside my family is being affected as she is my pillar of strength and the same can be said about me to her as well. It won't easy for the both of us but I just wish that time moves fast so the torture won't be jus as bad. Baby, dear, darling, sweetheart (sweetie), babe, watever nicknames we give each other always remember that you'll always be in my prayers I care for you and wish all the best for you. Take Care of urself while I'm gone.

Family, my bros Manuel and Sonny and my pillar of strength I will miss but no matter what I will always remain the same when it comes to the positive traits and hope to improve on the rest.

Alrite peeps I'm out time to enjoy my last weekend of freedom!

Fort Minor Live in Singapore, 1st March

2006-03-02T22:53:00.000+08:00

1st March Singapore Indoor Stadium 8pm

That time, location and event will always be etched into my mind. Why? It was the Fort Minor concert held over there featuring Mike Shinoda of Linkin Park fame and Styles of Beyond (S.O.B.) considered to be one of the biggest names of underground hip-hop. They brought the house down with all their hits from the Rising Tied album.

But first DJ Cheapshot came out onto stage to get himself comfortable by playing some beats so he will know what to do when the real thing starts. When the real concert began, Man it literally brought some noise from the crowd with one of their singles, "Remember The Name". Of course when it comes to underground hip-hop Singapore isn't very familiar with many names so naturally Mike Shinoda had to help out introduce themselves as Ryu and Takbir (or Tak for short) took the stage to rap out a song from one of their albums and what a way to introduce themselves. Now I'm sure S.o.B. will be more familiar among Singaporeans now thanx to some help from Mike.

There was a song called "Where'd You Go" which featured Holly Brook. Sadly tho she couldn't make it which was sad but they roped in some help from local talent and former Singapore Idol contestant Jessea Thyidor which wasn't so bad. Speaking of some help they also asked 2 groups to help out on vocals and instrumentals respectively. The vocals were almost like a bunch of backup singers like you would see on any concerts sorry guys. Victor, Dave and I can't remember the other guy. But couldn't hear much from them but the other group "Black Violin" were the bomb man. There was only one other hip-hop violinist Miri Ben-Ari which you mite haf seen on some hip-hop videos the only one I can think of would be "Overnight Celebrity" by Twista. She's the one with the violin but damn Black Violin ain't too shabby cos they played some current and popular hip-hop music and man these guys can play watch out for them in the upcoming future. You may never when or where they'll show up.

While "Cigarettes" was played to nothing a drum beat which was something that you may never expect from other artistes but who knows. Linkin Park fans were given a shout-out as "Enth E Nd" was played for all Linkin Park fans which included me. They also played "It's Going Down" which was made famous by The X-Ecutioners and Mike himself but that has gotta be my favourite song of all time. Its groove keeps me going. All in all the concert went damn well but unfortunately like all good things it had to end and it ended on the best possible way by playing their first single, "Believe Me". Everyone in the stadium just had to stand up and bounce to the song as it was the last song.

The concert was definitely worth my $70 and 2 hours of my life. If time had to repeat itself I would go for it over and over again without a doubt. As Fort Minor is a side project, I knew this was practically my only chance to catch them. Guys reading this and wanting to know if it's worth it to watch Fort Minor in other countries trust me peeps catch it you wont regret it.

Sadly couldn't get an autograph cos had to meet up with someone and everyone else was seeking an autograph getting an autograph would definitely had made the night better but don't ya think spending time with someone you care for alot after such a great concert is jus as good? Jus as i tot. Aiight peeps see ya around will try to blog more before National Service kicks in on March 9th.

Long overdue.......tell me something else i don't know

2006-01-29T00:09:00.000+08:00

Ok its been half a month since my last update but basically i haf been lazy to type out wat i haf in mind these days prob cos of work n all but wat to do

lots of things haf gone past since my last update.
Besides my continued work but I haf realized something dat my love life is not be active anytime if i keep waiting for someone n slowly my mind has known dat its time to head to greener pastures but den again my love life wont be active again cos NS is calling very soon so no point pursuing another person altogether. SO haf to stay single for awhile.

My mum managed to strike lottery or 4D but not much so i managed to get her to chip in for something i want. She tells me dat she'll help me buy the phone but dat has been taken care already since the phone came cheap so i asked her to help me cue but alas money has been gone before i knew cos she wanted her jewelry back from the pawnshop so oh wells wat to do. Guess i'll haf to take care of dat shopping myself.

Will be heading to malaysia in a few weeks time to do some shopping n take a break from singapore life before once again my NS calls me up. So gotta settle dat first. Lotsa things to do there. My pay is in so will get a chance to spend on some things.

Other dan dat i cant really think of anything else. Well like i said lots of things happened but i cant be bothered to post up cos its gonna open up a can of worms so ok i shall end things here See ya peeps.

The New Year has dawned upon us

2006-01-02T17:04:00.000+08:00

Ok I know I'm pretty late when posting this but I have been lazy ever since new year's eve. Went over to Sonny's place drank tequila. Tell ya man who ever bought the shot glass ought to be shot cos the shot glass was bloody tall to be considered a shot glass. Cos if u r a tequila drinker, you would know dat u dun take tequila in 2 or 3 swallows but in one dats why it's called a shot glass. This "shot glass" could have 2 or 3 swallows dat was how tall it was. Bloody strong if u fill up the whole glass bloody ridiculous. Obviously cos of dat Sonny, his brother n me puked. Jus wasn't pretty. Den stayed over to sleep since we were all jus suffering from hangovers. I think mine was a migraine tho but anyway had a good sleep disgusted to step in a lil vomit when i entered into the room in which his brother was sleeping in.

Came back home much later only to shower and head to church, treat my parents to dinner (so yeah i'm a filial son) and play pool with sonny (i really neeeeeed to get a pool cue to call my own). Came back home chatted and chilled around pretty much nothing other than dat. Was adding a music video to this blog which i was successful at it. Lazed and slept like a real log. Zzzzzzz....

Hahaha ok woke up had lunch. (I haf always had lunch after waking up for who knows how long already been lazy to wake up for breakfast) And now jus updating my blog. Go to my friendster and you can find "Run It" by Chris Brown feat. Juelz Santana go to my blog and you can find "Still On It" by Ashanti, Paul Wall and Method Man. Which one ya wanna dance to? Haha. Aiight chat ya up later peeps.

What do u haf planned for the new year's eve??

2005-12-31T02:47:00.000+08:00

As the title goes? Wat do u haf planned for the new year's eve, peeps? Anyone who reads this, jus leave a comment on either on comments or on my tagboard? Im really curious to know. I seriously haf no idea myself. Probably jus go partying i guess with Sonny n his gf. Whether or not I have company for the night is another question that can only be solved when the time dawns upon us. Guess we'll just have to wait and see. I'll be working later in the morning jus so to clear up the last day of work for the year i guess haha. After that, I'm free to go do whatever goes on at nite.

I was thinking about what else to put in for this post. Maybe I should just reflect upon the year that is about to fade away. It has been nothing short of a roller coaster that much i can say the least. A steady Relationship has been non-existent more like rocky to say the least. But what i can say is dat what I lost in a previous girlfriend of mine, i re-gained a cherished close friendship. She has kept me sane with all the shit that has happened in my life and I can only thank her for what she has done even tho she'll feel that she didn't do anything but I'll beg to differ. If I can hug you for as long as I wish, I would be happy but I know when she reads this, she'll think to herself no cos we still need to lead lives on our own. But still as i had said, her friendship will always keep me sane thanks for everything once again.

Other than that, was reflecting about the last semester of poly that I had and I seriously had doubts that I would graduate when I had a major project, a core subject that was a big killer but the other elective was pretty alrite. But at the end of the day, I managed to clear all those subjects and Im pretty amazed with myself and for the elective I gotta thank Vanessa for teaching me the ropes of business when she is so much more better than me that is for damn sure.

Lets see how about some dreams? Hmmmm jus go thru NS get it over and done with i suppose. Get a girlfriend? Hmmmm only God can decide on whether or not dats suitable for me at the time. He has planned out routes for me and I can only follow to wherever my decisions lead me to.

So many things have gone and are over. I guess life will have to move on and see where this life takes us. But hey peeps if u happen to read this post after the old year has past it doesn't matter let me know how your new year celebration went in my postings would definitely be interested to know. In the meantime, enjoy the celebration and keep in touch take care. *Peace Out*

Post-Xmas Happenings

2005-12-29T00:55:00.000+08:00

On christmas day, a fren invited me over to her house it was supposed to be like catching up or sorts i mean its been a long time we even saw each other like about 2 or even 3 years ago so yeah it would be good but den my ass was stuck in a family fren's place doing some gambling trying to earn some cash so can pay for any cab fare if needed. However at the end of it all, she decided for me not to come cos it was already 11 so we planned to meet up another time since it was like forever since we met so yeah

N dat day happened to be on tuesday, 27th December. Haf some lunch, chill out, catch up and watch a movie. She even brought along her sister whom i haven't even seen for probably an even longer time and we had lunch at pastamania n i tell ya it was so filling my goodness. I couldn't believe dat I couldn't even finish up my pasta. Maybe my appetite is getting smaller. But oh well lunch was good tho. They were kind enuff to give me a xmas present which was a shirt dat says

Avoid Hangovers...
.....Stay Drunk!

it's from Topman so im happy with the shirt n i know she was happy with her own present it was a nice soft fluffy pillow with a cow on it VERY COMFORTABLE i was thinking twice about whether i should give it when i gave it a try I was like falling asleep on it when i laid my head on it hehehehehe Sorry Vicky if u happen to be reading this but hey its not only for christmas but it was for her birthday so i guess it's alrite. So anyway after the movie she had to go off to her grand-aunt's place if im not mistaken so yeah had to go off in our separate directions anyway had to go for my own event to attend to had a fren's birthday chalet.

Got back home freshen up n was waiting for the rite time to move my ass to the Pasir Ris chalet. Met up with Sonny to take a cab down to the chalet n was jus chilling out n den Vanessa came down to the chalet n we were jus hanging out doing nothing but here's the best part suddenly the birthday boy's mum didn't want girls to sleep over n the bday's gf n Vanessa were over felt like a bum making her waste her time coming over jus to hear such a thing luckily his 'uncle' Sonny talked to his mum n everything was alrite since we slept all the way we were tired n all dat.

The next morning, had some cup noodles n jus again chill out waited for the birthday boy's mum to get the food ready n den we get the food over to the chalet slack abit more n den start the bbq for everyone who's gonna show up which were quite a lot.

I can only say one thing about Vanessa she stood in front of the bbq pit cooking all the food for everyone having the smoke surround her making her feel so dehydrated n tired I gotta say she's a trooper willing to do dat n not complain much i really appreciate her i jus decided to comply to any of her requests like any food or drink she needs, i'll get it for her. It was the least I could do for the effort she was putting in. Thanks Vanessa *Reserves a hug for her*

After the whole bbq was over jus played some games on the PS2 and when it was settled and done, jus came back home n now wanting to sleep pretty soon. Plus the nite stayed over at the chalet could hardly sleep, would sleep and wake up. Not good and not feeling so good and bloody tired need some sleep pretty soon.

Take care peeps!!!

New Skin for the New Year

2005-12-24T15:06:00.000+08:00

Ok the new year's almost here and its about time to set about anew and one way to do dat is do things or make things new jus like how I wanted to set a new skin for my blog trying using a customized picture for my blog. The one below.

Sounded easy at the time, jus had to set the settings as per normal but everything seemed screwed up and it proved more difficult jus to edit the errors than actually started from scratch so oh well. But anyway any comments for this new blog skin let moi know

Christmas is upon us but it jus doesn't feel dat the festive mood has properly been set in. Is it my imagination?

Apparently not!

A close friend of mine is not even feeling the same. She's jus going with the flow and hope the new year hold many good surprises for her and be better. Did some christmas shopping with my folks didn't buy much for myself honestly, jus this Adidas sleeveless generic jersey for myself while the rest got some new clothing. Like I said not really in the mood feel more like the mood to drink and party away. After that, went to hang out with some new frenz i met at this film camp prize ceremony.

I tell ya man, their mentality is totally different from mine. They can analyze alot of things dat no normal human beings can do. But hey they'r film students and I ain't got nothing against them, as a matter of fact, I respect them cos they'r doing something that they wanna do and isn't dat wat we hope to achieve. Do something dat we wanna? They'r nice ppl can talk about all sorts of nonsense not gonna mention what tho. So i'm jus gonna leave it as dat.

Anyway guys Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!

A mixed bag of chips of the past 2 days

2005-12-17T12:27:00.000+08:00

Ok as the title puts it, past 2 days have been a mixed bag of emotions: sadness, happiness, hysterical, fear, shock, disbelief and dunno what else i can think of. Let me elaborate:-

Sadness:
Well I guess sometimes i can be abit too caring and i managed to piss a close friend off cos her personal space was being closed off and sadly dat close friend jus decided to block me on msn but it was a sad time i must say not able to talk to her was like a crippling effect and I wasn't happy about it but what i can do about it i'll jus haf to wait on her to change her mind and den able to talk to her i jus feel tho dat she could haf told me dat she needed her personal space and I would haf left her alone.

Happiness:
I got to another close friend's birthday chalet and it was a good time to catch up with some long lost friends. Had some good food and had some drinking done.

Hysterical:
At the birthday chalet was jus basically joking with some of my frenz at the chalet so dat was good

Fear:
Well fear was before the sadness phase. Had a fear of being blocked on msn by a close friend which ultimately happened and fear turned to sadness

Shock:
My "sister" was telling the whole BMS gang about her nightmares that she has been having for the past week it was plain shocking cos its something dat would keep u awake and not want to go to sleep. (if ya wanna know about it ask me personally) Its jus something dat i shouldn't post on this blog

Disbelief:
I didn't expect this to happen but an old crush of mine called me while i was at the birthday chalet and she had to pass me this lil message I tot it mite be something bad or wat. Next thing i knew she was reading off a sms, letter or card or i dunno. But it was jus unbelievable to hear such a thing. It was jus a love letter kinda thing I was wondering who would haf sent such a thing. After the whole thing was read, she mentioned the name dat i didn't expect---My own!!! So yeah I was shocked and was in disbelief so basically this can be in the shock and disbelief. But who knew she would read dat to me especially since dat was sent so many years ago. I guess when u look back it feels so adorable.

That's about all i can think now back home and gonna enjoy my slack before heading for work later

Everyone's got roots....don't they?

2005-12-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

Imagine knowing you already haf a complicated background u know where exactly u came from. Like an eurasian (European mixed with an asian). Now imagine if ya will u found out almost all ur entire mixture of bloods. So far, I managed to find out i haf 8 in total so far.

Wanna see?
i) Portuguese
ii) Chinese
iii) French
iv) Irish
v) German
vi) Dutch
vii) English
viii) Algerian

That's my info for the time being. Im pretty sure my entire european background is mentioned not sure about the Asian portion tho. Would love to find out exactly what i have. Maybe that's about all I have huh only God knows

I guess I'll haf to explain for some things

2005-12-12T13:43:00.000+08:00

Ok u must be wondering why I set the poem in french in my previous post? Well its a very simple reason if u think about it. Well a love poem is a love poem n sometimes even tho u wish u wanna hide but u gotta let it out but what's one way to show it discretely? Simple put it in another language. N sometimes its jus a chore to actually try to translate so yeah.

Ok now for something else. The weekend has been boring basically. Parents were out of the country so i had to take care of my sister as well as the crib. Working and being the "man" of the houseisn't what I wanted to do but hey that's responsibilities for ya huh. I jus will haf to work for another month and a half n den start concentrating on my own down time relax, enjoy my slack time n oh yeah start exercising to prepare for National Service.

Now let me think what else I shall set before i forget hmmmm... well this friday its one of my best bro's birthday and a 21st at that. Gonna drink....again oh boy looks like i'll be bringing along some drinking partnerz oooooh weeeee now no excuses for any lung problems or any of that nonsense. What ya think will be a good gift? A bottle of a chosen alcohol? hahaha Will see Ok gotta jet nothing to say already

A poem that reflects my feelings??

2005-12-12T02:16:00.000+08:00

Avec le monde s'émiettant dedans, je me demande juste s'im faisant la bonne chose par waitin ', elle m'indiquait son stand, un stand qui ne changera pas un stand qui blesse et beaucoup d'elle des mots blessés sachant d'autres veulent obtenir plus près d'elle.

Est-ce que j'ai raison pour sentir la paranoïa ? Est-ce que je suis fou que d'autres types lui demandent son nombre ou une date avec elle ? Sensation du jus I éventée par ce fait. Son amour retournera-t-il jamais ? Est-ce que j'obtiendrai jamais le plaisir de l'avoir pour appeler mes propres ? Seulement le temps et le destin peuvent répondre?

Accepteront-ils de conspirer ou de me rendre heureux ? Je souhaite le dernier, me donne svp le bonheur à la fin

Interesting poem? well if ya wanna know the translation, simple--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Find out urself!!!

Fort Minor Like the lyrics?

2005-12-07T19:02:00.000+08:00

Ohhh Fort Minor's album is out i know exciting eh. But I cant help it man Bought the album n i haf been listening to it all the time. ALmost every song pleases my taste. Duncha jus love dat kinda album where u dun haf to press "NEXT". But anyway ever since i found out that Mike Shinoda (LP's rapper) had this side project I keep getting myself updated about the info, lyrics, music videos, etc.

Like the lyrics
Go to http://www.lyrics4you.org/lyrics/artiest/Fort_Minor.htm

To add on.....

2005-12-07T18:44:00.000+08:00

Ok I did a christmas wish list some time back. Now to add on to the xmas wishlist:

7) Digital camera
8) PS3 which will only come next year (not long man)
9) Watch either Linkin Park or Fort Minor in concert LIVE
10) MONEY!!!! I mean face it doesn't everyone wish for lots of money so they can do jus about anything cos with money i can get most of the things on my xmas wishlist.

Dats all for now. Now to add on even more with my tots.

My very close friend jus got back her Stats results from uni n i can tell she's happy about it but of cuz with the status of everyone else around her was getting better and higher grades. This made her think and analyze unnecessarily tho. My dear friend, I haf said this before im sure ur sick of it but honestly dun compare urself to others. U r ur own person achieve watever u can. No point trying to achieve wat other ppl r trying for unless ur able to. But anyway be happy with ur result at least u wont be repeating that module.

Christmas is coming soon is everyone ready for the festive season to celebrate or for others to forget about problems. Dun drink too much ya hear

Christmas Wish List

2005-11-28T21:03:00.000+08:00

Ok I may have copied from someone who copied from someone but i prefer to call inspiration. But yeah I think i shall put out a christmas wish list as well jus like a close personal friend. I jus would like some things to be achieved. I dunno if these things r possible but hey no harm wishing for them

Alrite here it goes (in no particular order jus the first things dat come to mind):
1) An all-black (not fibreglass) pool cue stick
2) A girlfriend that would love me for who i am
(i jus pray dat the person i haf in mind is the one)
3) A trip to America (yes back there i wouldn't mind)
4) An all-white Nike mid-tops (preferably air force ones perhaps hehe)
5) Nike soccer turf boots (all-white)
6) Knowledge of where im heading to after National Service
- or -
a) Knowing which design school or course to enroll my ass into after NS

Other dan dat cant really think of anything more but hey will see how it goes

Turning 21?

2005-11-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

Well its the last hour make it lesser than an hour of my birthday. My 21st birthday!! How does it feel to turn 21? no idea doesn't feel much different except to be more responsible for my action. Gotta be more tenacious in wat i need to do in order to achieve i guess. Next March is my National Service Enlistment and 3 months i'll be gone from this island onto another island for basic military training. What lies ahead only God knows what plans he has for me

Birthday coming

2005-11-26T02:55:00.000+08:00

Ok im holding a party, friends r coming over gonna haf some loud music, drinks and some good food i hope. But unfortunately, the one person whom i hope is coming isn't apparently cos her exams r coming too close n unfortunately the studying's proving a lil tougher dan hoped and haf to take studying well into the weekend but oh well sad as it is i got no choice but as they say the show goes on n i'll jus haf to drink in order to forget about it jus take care of urself (u know im talking about u) study hard n may everything come along smoothly in the end.

In the meantime, finalising the guest list has proven more difficult dan expected everyone giving me last minute notice dat they cant make it cos of army guard duty, work schedule or some other reason which is sad but oh well hope everything gets better in the end. Enjoy ur weekend

i hope i do

Workin' to get "loaded"

2005-11-12T00:47:00.000+08:00

Yeah its time to keep myself busy with work before the eventual Nation Service calls for me which would be 3rd March. Long way more but oh well wat to do. Nothing much goes in the store well wat can ya expect it is afterall a neighbourhood store. Like as if u'll see plenty of excitement around the area. But at least its within walking distance of my crib so at least save money on transportation. I'll need it when I mite haf to go all the way to the other side of the country which isn't cheap at all.

I tell ya peeps i cant wait for my pay to come in so at least i can feel my "pocket" so to speak. Haf some cash in the bank at least no fears when I need to pay for something. End of the month is coming and lots of things to plan out before dat date comes hope all my frenz r free for dat faithful day when I turn into a full fledge adult.

My PC is finally repaired

2005-11-08T15:36:00.000+08:00

After days of trying to get my PC repaired i jus had to call DELL n ask them how to reset my PC to factory settings sickening to be unable to surf internet but anyway my computer is back n now i haf to reinstall everything dat was in my com n bring back all the data dat i backed up on DVDs.

Now my computer is all fixed and ready to go i can finally do wat i haf been doing on my PC surf and slack whenever I'm not working

Now if ya excuse me, gotta find me some grub to eat or i'll be cranky during work see ya

PC is not responding....VIRUS getting to it

2005-11-03T03:21:00.000+08:00

Imagine if you will, you are able to connect to the internet but when you open up internet explorer, you can't type in the URL address such http://www.yahoo.com but can only type in the IP address of the actual website doesn' dat sound fantastic Can't even sign into MSN feel so isolated from the world. People are chatting while i dun even know wats happening. I tell ya its sickening. But here's the best part: I can still download watever u can find on limewire. Such a pain in the butt so wat else can i do when even the computer company DELL cant even solve my problem but to reset my computer to factory settings imagine all your effort of doing stuff on ur computer like playing games n watever nonsense has gone down the drain.

Hey "dear" i guess u didn't expect me to put up a blog but hey since i got time i mite as well but anyway jus take care of urself in school hope u read my comments on ur tagboard. Try to study as much as u can for uni exams you can pull thru eventually. Hope to see ya soon i miss ur company n overall you cant wait for ur exams to be over so at least u wont be so stressed.

Anyway didn't get a chance to do this during my time away from the "sick" computer but happy belated deepevali for all indians out there who celebrate and not to forget Selamat Hari Raya for all the malays enjoy the nice green packets u'll get make sure must find a way to treat ur frens to some dinner or something eh! HAHAHA nah im jus kidding.

This year hasn't been the best for alot of people. Either going thru relationship problems, losing frenz, suffering terrible lack of self esteem due to school's high standard or anything else or all of the above even. The year is basically bad but hey we gotta get thru it with or without obstacles in the way.

Ok I'm Lazy big deal so SUE ME!

2005-10-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

Ok it has been about a month since i last updated my blog alrite cos im lazy so im sorry. But anyway at least im back here aren't i? n oops i realized dat my tagboard is out of commission i'll try to fix something about it anyway I jus got back from kl like only yesterday i only had the best of feasts for 2 nites straight. All dat sting ray, chicken wings, roti john, nesi lemak, bak ku teh, beef murtubak & grilled fish.

Yummy now i suddenly have a craving for all that food again. Sorry guys if you don't understand all the food being mentioned its all malaysian food. I may be going up another day pretty soon alrite i pretty much haf nothing much left to say except see ya

Note Worthy Artist of the month - September

2005-09-02T17:49:00.000+08:00

I have been busy with school projects and I can't help it but but now I'm more free now I can update my blog more regularly well even more after my exam next monday anyway now down to business. I have been searching for artists that would be considered for this month and quite frankly, I think the best choice would be Crossfade.

Other artistes may have had more impact but all their songs available weren't all dat good like Rihanna her first single was bangin' but the rest were jus Zzzzzz... my bad anyway Crossfade was introduced by my friend and gotta thank her for it. Anyway their first single "Cold" was jus solid overall.

Here's the first single

Cold - Crossfade

Looking back at me I see that I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I’m always wrapped up in things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold

What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so

Cold to you, I’m sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You can see me stand on my own again cause now I can see
You are the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high

What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold

What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold

I never meant to be, so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep it always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me there’s just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold

What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold

Sick! Sick! Sick of being Sick!

2005-08-23T01:08:00.000+08:00

Obvious from the title eh? I'm a lil sick from a killer headache and running nose it jus aint friendly to me. Air Con is my enemy which is so sad! Medication is my best friend. *shivers* but anyway hopefully this running nose and headache subsides and den I can concentrate on my projects

Speaking of projects, final report for FYP is finally coming along fine jus haf to figure out some things and jus type it out hopefully can finish by this friday which I highly doubt cos need to do User Guide for the game itself which in itself is not gonna be easy

Cant wait to finish this school semester! Im hoping it will pass without any hiccups

Note Worthy Artist - Teairra Mari Week 4

2005-08-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

Ok week 4 has come around and now another song its jus the remix of No Daddy no brainer there eh when it comes to the lyrics jus scroll down to find the lyrics for No Daddy

but anyway here's the remix

No Daddy (remix) - Teairra Mari

What's Stuck in my Head - 22th August 2005

2005-08-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

Aiight Aiight this is really becoming too much of a habit but anyway here it goes. I really gotta stop listening to Fantastic 4 music but hey can't help it when some of the best bands just create custom songs for each member of the superhero team. And to actually have a hiphop song for the Thing is jus too good to pass up but dun expect to find it in the Fantastic 4 movie soundtrack only in the game inspired by the movie itself and also dun mistake it with another song of the same name by a harcore punk band called Sick Of It All strangely enough for the show "The Shield" which starred the man who starred as the Thing in the movie coindence? who knows

maybe he's fated to star as the Thing eh

here u go

Clobberin' Time - Jurassic 5

Is love that hard to find?

2005-08-19T00:30:00.000+08:00

Will this ever end?
The search for true love suspends
The one I hold dear
Remains away out of fear

I hold her lovely waist
She feels its a waste
And backs off in a haste
Hoping her actions will stick like paste

Is love really that hard to find?
Is it so bad that it's like stepping on a mine?
All questions concerned
My feelings cannot be discerned

My love and care still remain just as strong
I still wish you back
As my heart will always long
like it is in a pack

I will not pressure you
Just know that my heart will wait
You wish for things to be different
And quite frankly so do I

Love may indeed be hard to find
But nothing is ever easy

ITEN presentation over!!

2005-08-18T00:19:00.000+08:00

Phew Wednesday was hyped up to be a hectic day from beginning with the ITEN (IT entrepeneurship), lecturer mentioned dat overall dat the presentation was pretty good so dats a good sign wasn't the drilling dat the group haf expected jus a few questions here n there. We were practically rushing halfway thru as some of the members were 20 minutes but nvm we took up extra 10 mins so it was pretty alrite. But anyway it was over and we were all pretty happy, next week dun need to attend lab in the morning so it wont be hectic anymore yippee

N den later jus did the minutes for previous major project meetings, discussed about project itself during our meetings n practically the day has been ok. After discussion n all dat, jus went down to the students' lounge to kill some time n slack basically

Anyway tml hopefully will be more fun will haf dental appointment n den walk around with Vanessa cant wait to do dat anyway basically nothing much really

Hopefully she can get over some things in her life n be happy with life which i hope for her best. Uni starting soon girl enjoy it to the fullest i know u can do it. Sorry if it sounds redundant from others

Note Worthy Artist - Teairra Mari Week 3

2005-08-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

Oops late again my bad but den again I tried to find songs by Teairra Mari n it proved unsuccessful only could find on amazon.com which is so sad but oh well anyway this week its a pretty nice but hurtful ballad "Phone Booth" y dun u check out the lyrics and see for urself

Phone Booth
*crying and sobs*
Makes a collect call:
Teairra: Operator
Operator: City and state please
Teairra: Detroit Michigan, I need to make a collect phone call
Teairra: Hello?
Operator: What's the number please?
Teairra: 313-652-5501
Operator: And your name?
Teairra: Teairra (echoes)
Operator: Please hold

Verse 1:
Damn ring, now in my life ain't filled with nothing but the drama (drama)
Just had the worst fight ever with my mama (mama)
She believes that you've got two or three on the come up
Telling me you're loving me, but you're going home to them
Damn I hope she's wrong cuz boy I love the ground you walk on (walk on)
She knows that your ties in the streets can be fatal (fatal)
She's threatening to disown me if I don't let this go
Lord can you help me before I blow
I'm so afraid

Chorus:
I'm at the phone booth
My mom just pissed me off
I can't take no more
Can you come and get me from the phone booth
She's telling me to break up
Cuz you ain't gon' do nothing but hurt me
Come get me from the phone booth
It's raining, I'm crying
Damn I hope he ain't been lying to me
Come get me from the phone booth
My mom just pissed me off
I cant take no more
Can you come and get me

Boy on the phone: Baby, baby are you alright? Why you crying man? Teairra?

Verse 2:
If I leave (If I leave)
Where will I go (will I go)
Will you take me in like you told me before (me before)
Prove that she was just being hysterical (hysterical)
Show that what she thinks ain't reality, no
I love her (I do)
Same time (I love you)
But you both are making me choose (See what I go through for you)
Boy you better hope the future that you're promising me
Is as real as the 45 up under your seat
Come on

Chorus:
I'm at the phone booth
My mom just pissed me off (Ay yay)
I can't take no more (No more)
Can you come and get me from the phone booth (Come pick me up)
She's telling me to break up (Ay)
Cuz you ain't gon' do nothing but hurt me (Hurt me)
Come get me from the phone booth
It's raining, I'm crying (I'm all alone, come on)
Damn I hope he ain't been lying to me
Come get me from the phone booth
My mom just pissed me off (Pissed me off)
I cant take no more (Ohh)
Can you come and get me

Bridge:
I've been through so much (Much)
I can't be
Done like that again
Hope you ain't been running (Running) game
Cuz I'm so in need, ohh (Damn I got me so in need)
I want love (Love)
That's gonna give me (Give me)
What every girl prays for each day (Someone who knows how to love)
Damn, I don't see your car
I hope that you're on the way, ohh

Chorus:
I'm at the phone booth
My mom just pissed me off (Pissed me off)
I can't take no more
Can you come and get me from the phone booth (Oh can you come and get me now)
She's telling me to break up (Break up)
Cuz you ain't gon' do nothing but hurt me (Hurt me)
Come get me from the phone booth (Ohh)
It's raining, I'm crying
Damn I hope he ain't been lying to me
Come get me from the phone booth (Phone booth)
My mom just pissed me off
I cant take no more (Ohh)
Can you come and get me

Echoes:
Phone booth
Can you come and get me from the phone booth
Come get me from the phone booth
Come get me from the phone booth
Can you come and get me

What a weekend!

2005-08-15T02:17:00.000+08:00

Damn what a weekend was tiring and busy throughout even the friday n thursday was abit packed to the rafters. But anyway the weekend was my bro's (sonny) dad's birthday n it was held at Aranda Country Club chalet. wat ya know they needed help so i was helping out. Never knew they could bring so much food im telling ya the chalet was filled with so much food third world countries could haf a buffet n not go hungry for 2 days man!! was carrying so much food some bloody hot, some real heavy! n den the worst part of all was sticking some pork kebabs on satay sticks for about an hour or so with sonny, peggy and hazel woah my hands smelled worse dan crap when it was done i had to dig in the hand soap when i was done!! my hands were burning cos of all the pokings from the satay sticks n the soap was burning all the marks

But dat was saturday, friday was basically jus staying in n playing games on the ps2 or chatting away n watever nonsense we could do to kill time n damn wat ya know the 2 couples (manuel n hazel, sonny n peggy) took the 2 single beds n i was left on the sofa so sad wat to do but damn the chalet's air con is freaking cold man!! yikes! jus had to use the blanket to warm myself n jus listen to my ipod on the sofa thru the nite sunday is basically jus go to church, buy lunch for sis n do wat i needed to do like take a nap after such a tiring day the other day

Thursday however was a low point cos a fren was mad furious for getting in the cross hairs of my bro's dad but honestly the guy likes to joke dat way sounds very harsh n mean but its his way of joking around well basically she didn't feel it would be nice if the birthday man didn't invite n next thing u know he would say things "wah so i must invite u so i can treat u like a princess is it!" anyway once again sorry about it but its his way of joking anyway weekend is over n now its time to go into another week oh no wednesday presentation day muct wear long sleeve, neck tie and all dat nonsensical bullshit! crap hopefully my presentation would be fine!

P.S. must be confident must be confident must be confident PLS God give me the confidence n to go up to the front n show wat im capable of

What's Stuck in my Head - 11th August 2005

2005-08-12T02:33:00.000+08:00

Aiight another week and another song dat has been stuck in my head. But wait I couldn't find the song on wma to post on my music so something new for this week! I posted the music video of the song and trust me this song u will not see every week! Very enjoyable, good enuff for the clubs and its a unique idea for a video. Using her favoured style of stencilled graffiti as backdrop being animated around wells U'll jus haf to check it out.

Oops never mentioned who it is rite? Ok ok the singer is M.I.A. originally from Sri Lanka (of all places) but now in London plying her trade. Now that's what i call international flavour man! Her real name is Maya which means Illusion in her country.

Even tho the single was released in last year, I only saw the video on Mtv like a week ago or something like dat downloaded the song n now its like stuck in my head
Take a listen to:
Galang - M.I.A.

P.S. since its in quicktime format ya gotta wait a while before the video loads up sorry about it real player jus lags abit so quicktime once loaded can play with no glitches jus wait for the bar to turn gray but im sure some of u will be impatient n jus play half way anyway rite?
Anyway jus enjoy

Note Worthy Artist - Teairra Mari Week 2

2005-08-08T19:55:00.000+08:00

Well go figure the last song that was featured on the last What's Stuck in my Head of July happens to be Teairra Mari's second single and also song of choice for this week.

And what ya known the video of the song will be released along with the album. Pretty quick eh? Anyway enjoy:

No Daddy - Teairra Mari

Watch out more from her in the upcoming month and watch her shine as the Princess of the Roc! Even some of the critics are giving this 17 year old some props and definitely she will be huge. In the meantime, here's the lyrics to "No Daddy"

No Daddy

Chorus:
I didn't have no daddy around when I was growing up (huh)
That's why I'm wild and I don't give a (huh)
Ya'll think cuz these jeans fit, I would give it up
Don't let my cute face fool ya
I didn't have no daddy around when I was growing up (huh)
That's why I'm wild and I don't give a (huh)
Ya'll think cuz these jeans fit, I would give it up
Don't let my cute face fool ya

Verse 1:
Been through so much in my life
Seen things in my life
That I never thought I'd make it through
Had a few close calls in my life
That could have ended my life
But I'm here looking at you
Never thought that I'd be here
I'm the type that don't give a damn about rules
I was forced to survive on the streets
Make my own way to eat
Gotta do what I gotta do (Best believe)

Hook:
I know plenty of girls like me
That done been through hell just like me
Keep what your mama teach ya
Don't let cheat or the street defeat ya (Girlfriend)
And all my kickass girls like me
That ain't ever afraid to speak
Next time that they try to treat ya
Like you a freak just so he can look good
Tell them

Chorus:
I didn't have no daddy around when I was growing up (huh)
That's why I'm wild and I don't give a (huh)
Ya'll think cuz these jeans fit, I would give it up
Don't let my cute face fool ya
I didn't have no daddy around when I was growing up (huh)
That's why I'm wild and I don't give a (huh)
Ya'll think cuz these jeans fit, I would give it up
Don't let my cute face fool ya

Verse 2:
No I don't strip in the club
Nor trick in the club
But I got friends that do
So my girls that's getting the dough
The best way they know
Don't hate girl I got you
Even though it ain't me (I understand)
That its real in these streets (I understand)
When it comes to that rent, that whip
That check, ain't nobody gon' protect your neck like you

Hook:
I know plenty of girls like me
That done been through hell just like me
Keep what your mama teach ya
Don't let cheat or the street defeat ya (Girlfriend)
And all my kickass girls like me
That ain't ever afraid to speak
Next time that they try to treat ya
Like you a freak just so he can look good
Tell them

Chorus:
I didn't have no daddy around when I was growing up (huh)
That's why I'm wild and I don't give a (huh)
Ya'll think cuz these jeans fit, I would give it up
Don't let my cute face fool ya
I didn't have no daddy around when I was growing up (huh)
That's why I'm wild and I don't give a (huh)
Ya'll think cuz these jeans fit, I would give it up
Don't let my cute face fool ya

Bridge:
All, all my girls from a broken home
When you're feeling all alone
And you feel you can't go on (call me)
All, all my girls from a broken home
When you're feeling all alone
And you feel you can't go on (call me)

Hook:
I know plenty of girls like me
That done been through hell just like me
Keep what your mama teach ya
Don't let cheat or the street defeat ya (Girlfriend)
And all my kickass girls like me
That ain't ever afraid to speak
Next time that they try to treat ya
Like you a freak just so he can look good
Tell them

Chorus:
I didn't have no daddy around when I was growing up (huh)
That's why I'm wild and I don't give a (huh)
Ya'll think cuz these jeans fit, I would give it up
Don't let my cute face fool ya
I didn't have no daddy around when I was growing up (huh)
That's why I'm wild and I don't give a (huh)
Ya'll think cuz these jeans fit, I would give it up
Don't let my cute face fool ya

Again with the title?

2005-08-06T15:14:00.000+08:00

This week was enjoyable? hmmm will see anyway friday was my school's Campus Care Network (CCN) day carnival where students put up stalls to sell food, drinks, clothes, accessories, let people play games for a cost and other stuff all for the good of charity. Sarah came over to check out plus I hoped to help her cheer up hopefully I did a good job? Did i, Sarah?

The same old projects are piling up and believe its delivering a heavy blow on my life but hopefully I can pull thru. Gotta complete my section on financial statements by today so I can relax abit before going on to do my journal for final year project.

And of course raeD, you know i cant put up a blog without mentioning abit about you. Hopefully u take care and will hope to see you real soon. Well nothing much to say really. Oh yeah enjoy the weekend peeps.

What's Stuck in my Head - 6th August 2005

2005-08-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

Ok i know I was late for putting up on what's stuck in my head but trust me it wasn't easy finding for this particular song that I was looking for cos the fact is that the song wasn't released as a single which makes it even more difficult. So for this week this song will only be featured til thursday as per usual. No point putting up a song which is only a preview eh?

Anyway I was asked to download this song for a friend. I took a listen to it and next thing i knew my itunes counted that i listened to the song 95 times within the whole week unbelievable so ya u can say that this song has been stuck in my head

Released in the Stealth soundtrack, Incubus released 3 new tracks for the movie but one of them stood out in my mind but it wasn't the single.

It was:
Admiration - Incubus

Sadly its only a preview so that's the sad part hopefully it wont be dat bad next time around.

A subject head? does a blog entry really need one?

2005-08-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

Well the subject title jus means dat there'r plenty of things going thru my head. Like projects piling up, major project putting alot of stress on me n not to forget the feeling of not knowing wat to do in my life. A friend of mine is missing her care-free days when she was much younger and trust me my fren u ain't alone. It seems the older we get the worries we have.

But anyway on a happier note, I think u jus haf to be optimistic. I miss someone in my life alot rite now and I feel we'r still very close no matter what happens with our lives. She was, is, has and will always be an important person in my life. Talking to her n hearing from her words jus elevates me n gives me encouragement to do my best. No other person outside my family and God can do dat. I think she reads dis she will feel embarassed n blush. But hey i cant help it sorry about it. Past few days talking to you jus makes happy

Anyway, tomorrow is judgement day and i can tell u dat if i can make it out without my ass being cooked and barbecued for mouths of horror waiting to munch it up, I'll be so happy. But im sure that I can make it. I'm very sure of it with the support of everyone. Take care peeps thanx for reading along while I write

Note Worthy Artist of the month - August

2005-08-01T12:00:00.000+08:00

Ok July's in the past! The month that showed the promise of Megan McCauley from Wind-up Records is gone. Now time to move from rock to R&B to be more precise, the "Princess of the Roc". Roca-fella Records to be precise. She's been given that moniker after being under the guidance of Jay-Z CEO and big cheese of Roca-fella Records. And that's big if you wanna make it in the hip-hop scene. Have the backing of a hip-hop "Legend" like Jay-Z. Happily retired and making big bucks producing and scouting for talents lilke Teairra Mari. It ain't easy but hey he can pull it off.

Teairra Mari has everything going for her. With a big debut album coming out soon with the hit smash "Make Her Feel Good" and being produced by Jay-Z. She has the makings of the next big hip-hop diva. Check her as she's my August Note Worthy Artist

Anyway check out the new updated list of the Note Worthy Artist - Teairra Mari.
First off, Make Her Feel Good!

Make Her Feel Good

Jay Z:
R-O-C
Introducing
Newest acquisition to the R-O-C (S Dot)
Rocafella Ya'll
Young Princess of the ROC
Teairra Mari
We gets busy

Chorus:
Is there any boys around
that know how to make a girl feel,
That wanna make a girl feel,
Make her feel good?
All I wanna know
Is there any boys around
That know how to make a girl feel,
That wanna make a girl feel,
Make her feel good?
I just wanna know

Verse 1:
Do I have to tell a nigga how to touch me?
Do I have to tell a nigga how to hold me?
Do I have to tell a nigga when to call me?
Do I have to tell a nigga I'm lonely?
Do I have to feel wrong,
When it ain't strong?
Keep my mouth closed? (Huh Huh Huh)
Can't a girl from the hood find a homie
That ain't just tryna, hang around me?

Do I have to show a nigga I'm a woman?
Do I have to apologize for my emotions?
Do I have to tell a nigga what to say to me,
Every time he wanna get next to me?
Do I have to settle for a cat that can't score
Stroke his ego? (Mmm girl no)
Can't a chick from the hood find a homie,
that wanna do more than spend money on me?

Chorus:
Is there any boys around (Real boys)
that know how to make a girl feel (Ayy)
That wanna make a girl feel (Make her feel good)
Make her feel good? (Make her feel real I wanna know)
All I wanna know
Is there any boys around
That know how to make a girl feel (Feel)
That wanna make a girl feel (So real)
Make her feel good? (Give me what it is)
I just wanna know

Verse 2:
How come I got a nigga but can't trust him?
Why every answer to my question is a question?
Why can't my nigga be my own little somethin?
and every girl on my block can't say they done bumped wit?

I'm so tired of these so called wanna be hard cold pretenders that
(have no clue)
Can't a chick from the hood find a homie,
that I ain't gotta tell how to put it on me?

Chorus:
Is there any boys around (Ohh)
that know how to make a girl feel
That wanna make a girl feel (Make a girl feel)
Make her feel good? (Make her feel real, i just gotta know)
All I wanna know
Is there any boys around
That know how to make a girl feel (Feel)
That wanna make a girl feel, (So real)
Make her feel good? (Give it to me real, I just gotta know)
I just wanna know

Bridge:
Why, why is it so hard
Hard for a girl like me to find a boy
That really knows how to make a girl feel (girl feel, feel)
Why is it so hard
Hard for a girl like me to find a boy
That really knows how to make a girl feel (girl feel, feel)
I just gotta know

Chorus:
Is there any boys around
that know how to make a girl feel (How to touch a woman)
That wanna make a girl feel (How to treat a lady)
Make her feel good? (How to make me feel good)
All I wanna know
Is there any boys around
That know how to make a girl feel (Girl feel)
That wanna make a girl feel (Girl feel)
Make her feel good? (Make her feel real, I wanna know)
I just wanna know

What's Stuck in my Head - 27th July 2005

2005-07-29T01:39:00.000+08:00

Aiight peeps it touch finding a new song dat was stuck in my head cos simply put the music hasn't been given an injection of any new GOOD songs but i jus managed to find it in the protege of Jay-Z - Teairra Mari. Her first single was pretty good but her next single which hasn't come out yet here in lil ol' Singapore.

but I was jus exploring around in Def Jam n took a listen to her second single:
No Daddy - Teairra Mari
check the list on the right, 'STUCK IN MY HEAD' n click play!

It was banging! never tot could replace Pon De Replay but hey u gotta try somehow.

Note Worthy Artist - Megan McCauley final week

2005-07-29T01:32:00.000+08:00

Aiight peeps sorry for the delay was busy with alot of things especially with the 2 hour season finale of CSI! it was too good to pass up directed by Quentin Tarantino had no choice

Anyway the last song by Megan McCauley is Fragile well its supposed to be one of her demos
so no lyrics could be found unfortunately. Anyway a new Note Worthy Artist will be put up next month take a listen to her demo from the list n click play.

Fragile - Megan McCauley

So tired I could fall asleep at any given time

2005-07-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

Alrite past 2 days have jus been rather tiring! Yesterday was alrite was slacking til i joined my fren to go clubbing 4 her birthday! Invited some ppl Woohoo get to get out but here's the thing i only knew the birthday girl which sucks so I let her enjoy herself and apparently she did cos she was so f*cking high by the time she was done!! Aiight girl hope u had fun While me i jus sat by the pool table n watched the games it was aiight I had 2 winning streaks which felt pretty good cos everyone in the club could play, even the girls which was amazing! Even a girl beat me but i gotta admit she was good better dan some guys who played

I was so good for one game i was potting balls fluidly it was going smoothly til someone pushed my cue n the ball didn't go as a matter of fact it was too slow n it was a bloody foul. N next thing i never came back to the table ever again! He finished me off but it's all good i managed to enjoy my night of pool. Only drank one glass of bourbon coke my usual choice of 'poison' for clubbing.

By the time i was done it was 4 plus n i came back at about 5.20am!!! killer man i was so dead tired but could still stay awake n was watching telly til so late I wont wanna say! Woke up for church n den wad ya know lunch n more POOL!!! n damn i lost my cap today it dropped out of my pocket n i felt so sad. So sad cos it matches with my LA Dodgers jersey n wristbands. Sad but true. God i felt so weak playing pool today so tired n lethargic! My bro beat me but I can only say dat it wasn't my day but oh well u jus cant help it sometimes.

After such a nice time of playing pool, was chatting with a fren n realized dat u gotta appreciate every moment u haf of ur life! I thank God for every breath I take from my body. My prayers go out to a friend's best friend n family (If ur reading dis, u know dat im talking about u. I will keep dis a secret if u want). May they pull thru such a situation n may the tragedy subside when everything's alrite

What a mixed bag of fun, enjoyment, prayer, Java n sadly sadness all packed in a weekend. Hope ur weekend wasn't dis jammed up as mine was but hey i know some people who would say dat they had a worse or busier weekend. Enjoy the week ahead peeps

They say its TGIF?

2005-07-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

TGIF is here but y do i feel like the weekend is not gonna be enjoyable probably cos need to do dat project of mine Final Year Project man!!! Stressful but gotta be strong relax chill n work my way thru as long as i haf support from hers truly i can do anything!!

Enjoy the weekend peeps take care!

What's Stuck in my Head - 20th July 2005

2005-07-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

Ok ok the time has come for me to switch songs for the week and this week has jus got me wanting to go to a club n dance all night long! ok maybe not but this song has been playing on my ipod for so many times dat i lost count n im not sick of it!

Get ready for it its

Pon De Replay - Rihanna

jus click on the list n find STUCK ON MY HEAD!
jus remember to wait for a while for the song to buffer itself

School's killing me

2005-07-21T01:09:00.000+08:00

woah this week must seem like ages but hey dats wat u get when u have such a hectic diploma course eh! But i'll stay strong n hopefully things can get better with each passing day.

Speaking of getting stronger every day hopefully my fren is surviving on her own after wat terrible events haf occurred in the past week. Hope she'll be ok dun worry ur not alone. Poor thing but u jus take care of urself alrite anyway take a listen to the songs on the right unfortunately something screwy on "What's Stuck in my Head" Hopefully can find another way

Looks i may haf to concentrate on my blog skin another day when my semester ends n i certainly have more free time be patient n hopefully u wont be disappointed

But lately, I have learnt to appreciate more from what God has given me as he works in mysterious ways unknown to u guys. Hopefully everything works out in the end n we can achieve our goals to the best of our abilities!!

Note Worthy Artist - Megan McCauley week 2

2005-07-21T01:03:00.000+08:00

Ok the week is gone and now its time to listen to another song of hers, Reverie from the Fantastic Four sountrack she seems to have made a big impact on the music directors of the soundtrack. But anyway enjoy the song, Reverie jus click on the list n click on Reverie and play

oh yeah here's the lyrics

Song: Reverie

Left here alone
And unsure of what I feel
Unclear but I see
Just what I'm afraid of

I can't find my way anymore
And I
Cannot heal the wounds I've created
And I can't let go
Of what's killing me

Falling from this edge
I am lost to all I know, hey

I can't breathe anymore
Somehow I'm locked inside this cage
And I try
But I cannot fight to stay alive

Falling from this edge
I am lost to all I know
Time is only the answer see and
Lies the only
Reverie

I've tried
But I can't fight anymore
I'm falling from this edge

I am lost to all I know
Time is only the answer see and
Lies the only
Reverie

Is love not meant to be? or is God testing us?

2005-07-18T00:41:00.000+08:00

Is the title giving away too many hints? But seriously everyday i question myself whether I would be alone for the rest of my life or someone special would come into my life! 2 or 3 years ago I would have answered that I may have found someone that could fit into my love life she was special to me n made me special in her own little ways. But fights, quarrels n 'MISUNDERSTANDINGS' all escalated n we became on and now off! Its been a pain to separate every single time! I wished for a better life

Even now i still question myself! some may say that they r looking for commitment n far ahead when it comes to relationship like need financial stability before u can think about marriage of cuz its true but is dat the most important aspect of finding ur soul-mate? at the end of that day u haf to find for someone who u can talk to who u can communicate who understands u n most of all how dat person makes u feel when he/she is around with u? dats how i felt i was thinking far ahead n wondered if it would be fairy tale ending so far its not working out that way

I still haf tons of feelings for my ex n i know she can attract guys to her like bees to nectar! dats wat drives me crazy at times but im definitely controlling myself! I know she tells me to move on and find someone else to make me happy but i ask u guys "Can you be happy settling for someone who didn't meet the bar set as high as your one n only true love ever did?", "Would you be happy not knowing what could have been but wonder?"

I pray that its all but a test, a test of love! I know if someone were to read this i doubt it would make a difference but i jus feel dat her presence in my life is very important! She is probably one of the most important persons behind God and family! Is respect, love, cares, concerns and sacrifices enuff for a person to haf the same feelings? it all depends but i pray that God brings this kinda situation brings about a solution cos it eats in my heart every single time i hear that she may haf another suitor

What's Stuck in my Head - 13th July 2005

2005-07-14T02:18:00.000+08:00

Woah a lil late for posting up my music file for the week but anyway ya gotta check out What's Stuck in my Head for the week of 13th July 2005! Have you ever seen music videos where ya'll see this fair skinned girl with curly orange blondish hair playing violin in the background especially Hip hop like Twista or Kanye West! Ya must be wondering who's that? Her name is Miri Ben-Ari an Israeli born and she's a hip-hop violinist a real natural at it! Her offering featuring an underground rapper called Pharoahe Monch on the Fantastic 4 soundtrack is currently what's stuck in my head! Click on the playlist on the right and find for "STUCK IN MY HEAD!" Ya won't regret it!

New World Symphony - Miri Ben-Ari featuring Pharoahe Monch

MTV Style - Buzz Worthy Artist of the month!

2005-07-13T02:27:00.000+08:00

ok ok here's something which i tot of doing for the fun of it! a MTV style Buzz Worthy Artist of the Month! dunno wat else to call it but maybe Note Worthy or something but anyway for this month ya gotta check out dis singer called Megan McCauley!

2 of her own songs are featured on the Fantastic 4 movie soundtrack and ya gotta check out her main single on the album "Die For You (Fantastic Four Mix)" its one kick-ass track!!

To read up more about her, check out her website

http://www.meganmccauley.com

i'll put up lyrics for songs and new songs by her to post up each week that are just simply Note Worthy!! And since its already mid in the month i shall start on it now! Ya can take a listen to her best track on the Fantastic Four Album, "Die For You" in the list on the right side on Music/Video section. Just click on the listbox and find for the song of the week, "Die For You" and click play. First time doing a weekly thing like this any comments lay it on me any suggestions for a new artist next month let me know! Oh ya before I forget don't forget to check back tomorrow to check out "What's Stuck In My Head"! get to know what song has currently got me hooked on for the week! Dats all for now See Ya

Die for You

Your fear, it moves me
Your Weakness, I taste
I breathe you, I hate you
You course through my vains

And now
And now

You want me, you love me
And I hate myself
I breathe you, but I hate you
Cause I want nothing else

And I bleed you, since I've healed you
Your pain escapes through me
Cause I breath you, but I hate you
Cause they say we could never be
They cant see

I know I shouldnt love you
There's just too much to fake
But you see me, and I feel you
And I am not afraid
I'm not afraid

And I bleed you, since I've healed you
Your pain escapes through me
Cause I breath you, but I hate you
Cause they say we could never be

It seems the pains been traded
Since I pulled you through
And now my minds been jaded
And I would kill myself for you
I'd die for you

And I want you and I need you
Your pain escapes through me
Cause I breath you, but I hate you
Cause they say we could never be

I want you
And I need you
And I bleed you
Cause I breathe you

And I see you
And I feel you
And I hate you
Cause I'd Die for you
I'd Die for you

Woah! hard time coding!

2005-07-12T02:41:00.000+08:00

It's unbelievable that a guy myself who so convinced himself that blogging was gonna be a waste of time and next thing u know here I am searching high and low for coding to put up music or music videos on my blog here! Once I got the music video up and running, I can't tell ya how a lil excited I was! now dats wasting time

gotta thank her for inspiring me to start blogging but if anyone is able to help me connecting music files to my blog, pls tag me up would love help video is nice and all but can't expect everyone to keep staring at the screen to jus watch music video

but anyway 2nd day blogging so far so good but went to school to do project but should be more interesting later when i would be out to see the Vatican Exhibit at the local museum! would be interesting to connect to my Roman Catholic faith

2005-07-11T02:52:00.000+08:00

My wallpaper

First timer! Late bloomer?

2005-07-11T02:51:00.000+08:00

Woah! check it out i always tot i would never make a blog of my own looks i'll be eating my own words! any suggestions of ingredients to make them a lil tastier at least? maybe salt, pepper or salsa perhaps? haha ok kidding Its a matter of putting the right words in it but anyway what inspired me only God knows but anyway life brings u to places where u'll never expect! Words from certain people can certainly motivate one n bring up the spirits of a person!

I know you'll be the first person to read dis, you know who I'm talking about hopefully. We may have been far apart at times but we seem to continuously pull each other back towards our gravity known as friendship. You mean alot to me n really alot of songs can express how i feel at so many points in our lives whether it be "How To Deal" or "Here Without You" it jus spoke my heart n i pray that you'll live your life happily in whatever course you take in your life!